i don't know what else to try, no idea what do do different.
i put so much pressure on myself but what else can you do.
i keep thinking I should be further, should be better, should be more.
i keep telling myself to just keep going, but going where?
am i going to keep trying to run away from the past my whole life? what am i even looking forward to?
i keep trying to rationalize that if i work hard enough i will have anything i need to be able to move on but move where?
idk, on a positive note i realized that writing things down makes me feel slightly better about
myself. doesn't fix anything though, just makes me take my mind off i guess
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